Here I am, back on Livejournal because I can't sleep.

TOday's been wierd. I've had too much time to think. I wish I could care less about how I think people feel about me and just be myself. It's like I'm always trying to get people to like me. But that could be just me trying to be myself. Ugh this is so stupid. Anyway. I'm really debating with myself on who's my friends and who's not. Who can I talk to and trust, and who can I not? Who actually wants to talk to me, and who is just acting and pretending to care to not hurt my feelings? I can't tell these things. Can other people? Because I can't. Maybe I just want to much out of other people. I guess I can't have perfect friend like Alex, that I see on a day to day basis. I doesn't seem possible for me. Or maybe it is, and I just don't know it, because I'm blinded by my suspicions and fears. I think I going to stop there, because this is starting to sound WAY to emo.

My day was ok. I worked today and left ealier than I (and Jeremy) thought I was. I felt really bad too cause it seemed like he really needed me there. I wanted to stick around but my dad was out there waiting cause I was scheduled to get of at 5. I was planning on staying til 630. Tommorow I;m scheduled for 4 but I wanna try and go in early. Or I might just go into the park for fun until I have to work. I want to by a jacket that says Six Flags on it anyway, before the park closes.

I have school on monday and a lesson. I really think this senioritis crap is actaully true. I'm really starting to not care about things. All I really want to do is work, and go to college. Now. I don't want to have to suffer through another school year. But whatever. I guess I should savor this time while it lasts. College life may not be as great i think.

I think Ive type enough for now, especially since no one really reads this. I'm off to bed again. Goodnight.

I'm writing right now because it's late and I can't really settle down. I should be sleeping, but i'm somewhat dreading tommorow, even though it's friday. I have psych tommorow. I really don't like that class. The subject is neat, but the class isn't. I did turn in my applications to Uofl and UK though, and I might do one for EKU too. So about 1/8 of all of this college crap is off my mind. The other 7/8 includes what I want to major in, scholarships and auditions, recommendations, where I want to go once I'm accepted, and most importantly, how I'm going to pay for it. But I' guess i'll cross that bridge when I come too it.

I only have 6 days of work left. It's kind of sad. I never thought I'd enjoy working at Kentucky Kingdom so much, but even with the grouchy customers, constant cleaning, oil burns, and that three day suspension, I really had a blast. I just hope that when I go back next year, it's just as cool working there as it was this year.

It's 12:30 now. I should get to bed. Goodnight.

R1-Jazz Improv-Essig
R2-HNR Algebra 2-Wahl
R3-ADV Chemistry-Frederiksen
R4-Symphonic Band-Rob/Essig

W1-ADV English-Peacock
W2-ADV Latin 2-Livers
W3-ADV US History-Morgan
W4-Wind Ensemble-Rob/Essig

There's my schedule.

I'm in austria everyone. I having a lot of fun and you#re all stuck in the states. When I get back in about a week there will be pics. So yeah, this trip has been fun so far and I#ve made new friends and stuff. Theres drama of course but it's all cool. This german keyboard i wierd by the way. Anyway, im gonna go now. I'll see you all in about a week.

Alex when you install the Sims 2 you have to install University before Nightlife, or it wont work.

Today was fun at KK. I plan to do it again.

I am in the worst mood right now. I feel like I hate everything around me. Even myself. I'm actually thought about trying to get suspended from school on purpose. I dont want to go back to to that god damned school. Im so behind on my work. I've got nothing accomplished, and I doint feel loike doing it now. I haven't even practiced since last thurday, and have a fucking lesson in tweo days. Im pissed. Pissed off at myself mostly, which is mzaking me pissed at everyone else. Im just need a long time alone. And I REALLY dont feel like going to my dads, because of al the bullshit work that have to do.


DAMN IT! This spring break fucking blows.

The Class of 07 sucks. If I lose, I'll probably never hear the end of their shit. That would be the worst part. Even worse than playing the 3rd part. Even worse than losing...to her...

If I win, I wont rub it in. If I lose... well, I know who the better player is for real, and I know who really cares.

Sorry for the repeat entry.

My dad let me taste some wine a few minutes ago. It tastes just as bad, if not worse than beer. How can people like it that kind of stuff so much, if all of it tastes so bad?

( Survey stolen from my friend Alex at GJ )

I'm gonna be a mess on Tuesday.

Okay, so I have some new years resoloutions too.

1. Stop being so envious.
2. Practice more often.
3. Try harder in school.
4. Read the Lord of the Rings.
5. Start reading my Bible again. (haven't really read it since summer time)
6. Take better care of myself.
7. Quit forgetting to take my siezure medication.
8. Quit worrying about the future so much.
9. Be a better person in general.

Even though half of these probably won't happen, I really want them too. I really need to start practicing trombone more often. I wanna be a good player, but how can I, if I don't practice enough? AndI really should try harder in school. I almost had a C in Algebra 1, and it's my 3rd year taking it. I know I'm smarter than that. But yeah, there they are so I don't forget them.

Happy New Year to whoever reads this.

1. Put your birth month in an entry.

2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.

3. Bold the ones that especially apply.

4. Put all twelve months under a journal cut.


DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotisic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.


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I walked into brother's room just now and started playing around on his horn. There was this cartoon on cartoon network, and according to the the mom on the cartoon, "Saint Nick" represents the true meaning of Christmas which is the spirit of giving gifts. Sad.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Scary thought huh?

( Quotes from my Eastern friends who came to see our concert last week. Chris you should really read these. )

Today I fell asleep during my human geography final. I thought after the written part she was gonna pass out the multiple choice part. Well I was wrong. We had to turn in the written answer part and then get the multiple choice. So what I did was lay my head down, waiting for nothing to happen. I'm such a dumbass. I had to rush the multiple choice. Hopefully I didn't do to bad.

I'me using this one again. I keep typing in this name and password so I'm going to use it from now on, but I'll make the entries public from now on.

I forgot to post my grades eariler. Here they are now.

AP Human Geograpy B
Advanced English 1 C+
Honors Algebra 1 A- (my first A in math since the first grading period of 6th grade)
Advanced Integrated Science 1 C
Intermediate Band B
Symphonic Band B
Marching Band 1 A
PE A

I know I can bring Science and English up. And I hope my Human Geography score stays as high as it is because I thought I was doing bad in that class. Im going to practice now.